沉默的航线

楠楠说，你要打起精神来啊。不如去旅行吧。

“你觉得帽檐下面这双眼睛的眼神不可能是个粉刷工人的眼神，因为这双眼睛仿佛是要飞越绝壁的人的眼睛：想着彼岸，凝视前方，既不向前看亦不向两侧看。”

----《如果在冬夜，一个旅人》

小情歌
词曲:吴青峰
演唱:苏打绿

这是一首简单的小情歌
唱着人们心肠的曲折
我想我很快乐
当有你的温热
脚边的空气转了
唱着我们心头的白鸽
我想我很适合
当一个歌颂者
青春在风中飘着
你知道就算大雨让这座城市颠倒
我会给你怀抱
受不了看见你背影来到
写下我度秒如年难捱的离骚
就算整个世界被寂寞绑票
我也不会奔跑
逃不了最后谁也都苍老
写下我时间和琴声交错的城堡
最后谁也都苍老

曲名：you were my everything

歌手：Chuckie Akenz

This goes out to someone that was
Once the most important person in my life
I didn''t realize it at the time
I can''t forgive myself for the way I treated you so
I don''t really expect you to either
It''s just... I don''t even know
Just listen...

You''re the one that I want, the one that I need
The one that I gotta have just to succeed
When I first saw you, I knew it was real
I''m sorry about the pain I made you feel

That wasn''t me; let me show you the way
I looked for the sun, but it''s raining today
I remember when I first looked into your eyes
It was like God was there, heaven in the skies

I wore a disguise ''cause I didn''t want to get hurt
But I didn''t know I made everything worse
You told me we were crazy in love
But you didn''t care when push came to shove

If you loved me as much as you said you did
Then you wouldn''t have hurt me like I ain''t shit
Now you pushed me away like you never even knew me
I loved you with my heart, really and truly

I guess you forgot about the times that we shared
When I would run my fingers through your hair
Late nights, just holding you in my arms
I don''t know how I could do you so wrong

I really wanna show you I really need to hold you
I really wanna know you like no one could else know you
You''re number one, always in my heart
And now I can''t believe that our love is torn apart

refrain:
I need you and
I miss you and
I want you and
I love you ''cause
I wanna hold you,
I wanna kiss you
You were my everything
And I really miss you (2x)

I knew you gonna sit and play this with your new man
And then sit and laugh as you''re holding his hand
The thought of that just shatters my heart
It breaks in my soul and it tears me apart

At times we was off I was scared to show you
Now I wanna hold you until I can''t hold you
Without you, everything seems strange
Your name is forever planted in my brain

Damn it, I''m insane,
Take away the pain
Take away the hurt
Baby, we can make it work

What about when you
Looked into my eyes
Told me you loved me
As you would hugged me

I guess everything you said was a lie
I think about it, it brings tears to my eyes
Now I''m not even a thought in your mind
I can see clearly, my love is not blind

refrain

I just wish everything could have turned out differently
I had a special feeling about you
I thought maybe you did too
You would understand, but...
No matter what, you''ll always be in my heart
You''ll always be my baby

Our first day, it seemed so magical
I remember all the time that I had with you
Remember when you first came to my house?
You looked like an angel wearing that blouse

We hit it off, I knew it was real
But now I can''t take all the pain that I feel
Reach in your heart, I know I''m still there
I don''t wanna hear that you no longer care

Remember the times? Remember when we kissed?
I didn''t think you would ever do me like this
I didn''t think you''d wanna see me depressed
I thought you''d be there for me, this I confess

You said you were my best friend, was that a lie?
Now I''m nothing to you, you''re with another guy
I tried, I tried, I tried, and I''m trying
Now on the inside it feels like I''m dying

refrain

(Talking)
And I do miss you
I just thought we were meant to be
I guess now, we''ll never know
The only thing I want is for you to be happy
Whether it be with me, or without me
I just want you to be happy

偶然中听到的一首歌。

最近有两个我曾经日夜思念期待他们跟我联系的人，在这个我早已要慢慢忘却他们的时期给我发了消息。

可是过去的都过去了，我跟他们说了一些转瞬即逝的话。

为什么，我不能正视自己感情。

为什么，我不能坚强的面对自己。

为什么，我不能勇敢的去冒险。

为什么，我逃避任何没有把握的事物。

我所做的仅仅是

在默默等待中，度过无数个不眠的夜。

片名： Almost Famous
导 演： 卡梅伦.克劳 Cameron Crowe
主要演员： 比利·克鲁德普（Billy Crudup）
弗朗西斯·麦克汤玛德（Frances McDormand）
凯特·哈德森（Kate Hudson）
杰森·李（Jason Lee）
派屈克·福吉特（Patrick Fugit）
安娜·帕奎因（Anna Paquin）

再一次再一次的看《成名在望》。

这部电影对我的意义，不仅仅是一部电影那么简单。

第一次是波比专门刻了盘，送我的。盘保存了很久。现在应该还在蛋蛋那儿。

那时候，我们是彼此孤独 却 心心相印的SICKBABY。

最近我忽然发现我忘记了很多，以前我觉得永远不会忘记的事情。

就像村上在《挪威的森林》开始写的：

   “直子说：'希望你永远记得我。永远记得我这个人，我曾经在你身边。'

      '永远记得，'我说道。'我怎么忘得了？'

     尽管如此，这份记忆的确是已经离我远去，我已经忘掉太多事了。像现在，一边回忆一边写，就常会教我陷入一种不安的情绪。因为我担心自己也许会将最重要的记忆遗漏掉。说不定，这回忆早已在我体内的哪方阴暗的“记忆边疆”里化作春泥了呢！”

今天有人问起我跟蛋蛋如何认识的时候，我发现自己怎么努力，也想不起来，我们俩是怎样走到一起的了。我的记忆甚至已经有些颠倒。我记不得到底哪件事在前哪件事在后。它们恐怕也早已在体内一些黑暗的地方烂掉了吧。

看《成名在望》。姐姐说，这首歌唱尽了我离家的心声。然后Simon&Garfunkel的《America》在电影里响起，我忍不住再一次的落下了眼泪。

Let us be lovers we'll marry our fortunes together"
"I've got some real estate here in my bag"   
So we bought a pack of cigarettes and Mrs. Wagner pies

And we walked off to look for America
"Kathy," I said as we boarded a greyhound in Pittsburgh
"Michigan seems like a dream to me now"
It took me four days to hitchhike from saginaw   
I've gone to look for America
Laughing on the bus
Playing games with the faces
She said the man in the gabardine suit was a spy
I said "be careful his bowtie is really a camera"   
"Toss me a cigarette, I think there's one in my raincoat"
"We smoked the last one an hour ago"

So I looked at the scenery, she read her magazine
And the moon rose over an open field

"Kathy, I'm lost," I said, though I knew she was sleeping
I'm empty and aching and I don't know why 
Counting the cars on the new jersey turnpike
They've all gone to look for America
All gone to look for America

All gone to look for America

“点上蜡烛，听TOMMY的歌，你就会看到你的未来”

“one day，you'll be cool.”